what goes around comes around

assalmualaikum...

dear readers and bloggers, thank god i'm still have the opportunity to write in here... i just want to share something that truly happened to me, in front of me, and around me... subhanallah, Allah know what He did... im not saying that i am perfect or very good in everything... the thing is, i've learned much from this group of people... dear ALLAH s.w.t, i praised u for giving me a chance to meet them... to know this people and learned from what they did to people around them...

im not surprised when they started to change themselves... while after everything wrong going right at the time...  im a bad person before, maybe some people said im a wild teen, i admit who i am, but ALLAH give me the way... even thought im still in progress to be "somebody" as HIS slave, as daughter, wife, sister, lecturer, friend and someone for ALLAH s.w.t, for my lovely parent, for my husband one and ever, to my family, my parent in law, my fam in law, my students, my friends and public...

im trying to create a border or limitation for my self in term of relationship between peoples around me... my past thought me to be so... but what i get is still rubbish... sorry to say, what people they are... create a rumors and punish others without thinking ALLAH always there to see what we did... im being nice as much as i can, and guess what, i put aside my egoism away from me, hide it somewhere where people couldn't reach it... but ALLAH giving me a chance to feel how hurt it is, how wonderful our life... they punched me out deeply in my mind... fortunately not in my heart... once in a while, i always bear in my mind, the life of doing mistake is more honorable than a life spend doing nothing... so, they might be thinking of a same thing... hurt others, create a problem till break the human relationship...

ya Rabb, my husband always remind me... "Allah x suka umatnya yang putuskan talian persaudaraan" and what happened around us is..that thing... why i said what goes around comes around??? it is because them... they said bad about me, about us... talk like i did a real mistake which nobody could forgive me... and that time, i feel like i am real bad person coz i cant maintain the relationship... feel like i am the worst one...
but now, Allah shows the way... now, they did what they said to me last time... and syukur alhamdulillah, they are no longer related to us... and the most important thing is, ALLAH open my heart, and my husband too... to step out of the world which full of junkies... and let us begin the new life as muslim...

thanks ALLAH s.w.t...

peacenowar,
jujumohdjan

indahnya peraturan yang maha esa...

assalamualaikum....

bile duduk sendirian dan perhatikan keadaan, merenung masa silam, sekarang dan akan datang... ya Allah ya Tuhanku, indah sungguh percaturanMu ya Allah s.w.t... kadang aku terpikir adakah perlu untuk merasa menyesal... dan jawapan yang aku dapat, tidak... x perlu menyesal dengan apa yg tercipta untuk kita... belajar dari kesilapan dan belajar menerima qada' dan qadar' yg ditetapkan Nya...

allah s.w.t mencipta segalanya bersebab... dan atas sebab itu lah, xperlu ada kesesalan dalam hidup... syukur tuhanku, aku diberi peluang untuk merasa nikmat kesakitan, nikmat kesedihan, nikmat kebahagian, nikmat kegembiraan dan nikmat kejayaan... x semua umatmu berpeluang meransa nikmat ini... jika kebahagiaan itu indah, indah juga keperitan dan kesedihan... 

terima kasih suamiku, kerana meperingati aku dengan kata2 itu... " Bila kita minta bunga yg indah mekar, Allah berikan kaktus berduri... bila kita minta rama-rama cantik berseri, Allah beri kita beluncas berbulu...TAPI kita lupa, yang kaktus berduri akan beri bunga yang cantik, dan beluncas berbula akan bertukar menjadi rama-rama yang cantik... itulah jalan Allah s.w.t...

ambilah sedikit waktu, rununglah pemberian Nya... aku sudah melalui masa yang sangat berat untuk aku terima... sendirian, dan xda bahu untuk di kongsi... hanya DIA yang ada... tapi aku redha dan alhamdulillah, tuhan berikan aku ibu bapa disisi... dan sekarang seorang suami yang memahami... hanya dia tempat berkongsi suka dan duka... aku pernah merasai saat kaktus masih lagi berduri, dan beluncas masih jua berbulu... dan sekarang, Allah buktikan yang kaktus itu berbunga, beluncas itulah rerama... syukur ke hadrat mu ya ALLAH...

peace no war,

jujumohdjan

ramadhan : keberkatan untuk aku dan suami...

assalamualaikum,

hi readers, and friends... hari ini adalah hari terakhir bulan sya'aban 1433... itu menandakan esk bermula lah satu ramadhan... our fasting month... what make me so happy for this year??? ak akan berpuasa bersama seorang laki-laki, laki akulah... suami labih lembut... hehehheheh... mungkin org akan pikir itu nothing, tapi pada aku, tahun neh mmg lain... lain dari yg sebelumnya... aku sebelum ni, jarang sambut hari raya dgn famili... atas sebab2 tertentu... mmg org pk ak heartless, tp abah dh izinkan aku... tp skg, aku dh ada suami... lelaki kedua yg paling aku sayang... knapa kedua??? sbb abah adalah lelaki pertama dlm hati aku... xkn ada org lain... rindu abh... smlm besday abah... :)

hari neh jgk asal nya hari keputraan sultan terengganu, cewah kn dh jd a part of terengganuian... hahahha.. perasan sat... sebelum masuk esk hari, kepala otak pk mcm2... teringat nasi minyak ayah la, teringat rendang ayam yg abah mesti masak setiap tahun bl puasa... teringat laksam yg ma bli tiap kali balik k.t... teringat laksa mak aku... kak g, i miss ur laksa and bihun sup so much la... dah tkar topic la...food je asyik ingat...

tahun neh, puasa nk balik kedah dan aku akan beraya di terengganu... first time tu kot... nebes nk masak rendang untuk org terengganu... nasib la ma dpt menantu chep... hehehhehehe... bln neh teringin nk beribadat dgn suami aku... pegi jemaah tarawih same2... bangun sahur sama2... insyaallah, kalau di izinkan tuhan... moga kami dapat rezeki itu...

tahun lepas puasa sorang2, sekarang berdua, hopefully next year bertiga la... dan seterusnya... hehehhe... amin mudahan allah dgr apa yg aku minta... bulan mulia dh tiba esk... ak harap perkara yang x elok tu jauh lah dgn aku dan suami... syaitan dan jin akan di ikat, yang tinggal hanyalah nafsu kita... so if anything wrong we did, it is not because of them, it is because of our self... moga semua umah allah mendapat keberkatan untuk ramadhan tahun neh... amin ya rabb...

peace nowar
jujumohdjan

forgiveness : admitting the mistake we made or pretending we are always right ?

assalamualaikum...
and hello to all readers out there...
how should i start this??? i have lots of ideas but i don't know how to voice it out... im facing a phase which  i thought it is quite difficult to decide or find a solution for "that" things... i dont know how, and where can i find the best...best what??? omg, i lost my idea... im stress, under pressure and clueless of what is going on...
ok refer to word fogiveness, what did u really understand of it??? i still seek for it... i miss my mom and dad... and my family... it been long time we didnt hang out together, having dinner or lunch together... it just like flew away after one by one had their own fam... i miss the bench that abah make his ownself, where all of us spend our evening there... it such a beautiful childhood moment... even 8 of us had a cat fight most of the time...hahahhahah... and now, when one of my sis who i never speak to almost 6 years text me and seek for forgiveness from us, suddenly the tears dropped... and i knew, i miss my family... and she remind me, its not about the egoism of all of us, but it is all about our mom and dad happiness... i put away my egoism, my cold heart, and everything that make me hate some of them, just to say sorry and wish to stop all the nonsense conflict between us, coz im still remember, when mom called me and she is crying like a baby... it is not a tears of sadness, but it is tears of happiness... mom, dad, will you forgive us for what we did... 8 of us???

celebrating his birthday - 1st as hubby wifey-

assalamualaikum...
hye readers and bloggers...
june- gemini - my husband birthday... since it was on working day, so we only could manage a simple birthday party for him... but hosted by my friend, comel n usop... actually, i am planning for something fun and happening birthday party but due to lack of time, it doesnt work.. planning to celebrate it together with hanna, also born on june, cant be proceed... so we decided to make it separately... fortunately, usop and comel wanted to cook and prepare all the meal and din will bought the cake... me??? planning to surprising him... so i told my hubby im going to night market, and asked for permission since im HIS wife now...hahahha... to be a good wife ya... i went there with din and mahat, and while usop n comel preparing the meal (its happened after work), me and din went to mart to buy some drinks, and candle... and around 8 pm, my little lovely hubby arrived comel's house and we pretending like no cake for that day...just a food, dinner like we always did... after my hubby finished his prayer, we bring out the cake and sing together his birthday song... so it is, just a simple celebration... not like the previous year... we celebrated it at PERHENTIAN ISLAND, with new foreign friends from Switzerland, Holland... and so sorry syg, it was just a simple birthday present for you this year... im out of idea what to give syg...ahhahaha... last year, i gave him, a wonderful vacation to perhentian island, cK watch, and HTC Desire HD... n this year, new rash guard from RIP CURL... hehehhe... i know you like sayang... ill fine the quicksilver rash guard someday dear...
to Allah, thank for giving me a chance to celeb his birthday again this year...and may Allah bless Muhammad Khuzairi b. Mohamed @noordin life and give us happy family life... i love you sayang...

here some pic to share...

rip curl rash guard for him

new york cheesecake from secret recipe 

birthday boy n wifey - blow it baby blow

happy 29th lovely

after blow candle

credit to comel and usop for foods

cake again

din dont know what to rite my hubby name... so left it empty

invited too... lan, wan and hanna

host  - usop and comel

fatty wifey and cute lovely hubby

hanna 

the end---
peace no war...
jujumohdjan

new update, new post...old hobby, new part time job...

assalamualaikum and hi readers...
ermmm, ok...it been a while im not updating my blog, n as usual, ill update more than one soon at same time...hahhaha...really busy and have no mood to write anything in here, but trying to do so sometimes and now at last... successful to do so...
new update ??? yes of course this is my new update, and ya, new post for my blog... but, old hobby??? new part time job??? wondering what is it??? ok let me share what i mean when i talk about my old hobby and now it is one of my part time job...just to fulfill my free time... ok, im not the one who will pain my face every times i went out, but sometimes ill do it for any occasion or u know, if i had a very pale face...yes ill do it... and i had a friend, my best buddy during my diploma... and everytime we bored or one of us felt sad and under pressured, one of the best solution for us is MAKEUPPPPPPPP....hahahha...yes it is... we paint our face, and trying to look differ and beautiful (even we knew beauty without painting is better), doing some experiment mixing and blending the color... and finally it works.. its make us happy, laughing and feel free at that time... owh i miss her so much, and she just engaged last Saturday, and she look beautiful with her neutral make-up...
and during my wedd, i dont had enough time to find make-up artist, than i decided to do it my own... few weeks after, one of my friend ask me to pain her face during her wedd, n i got another one and another one...again... so i told my hubby, people like my touch... so, i think why not i take it as my part time job... maybe someday, i can be a good one... if it GOD wills... btw, thanks Allah swt for giving me more than one talent to survive in this heavy and adventure world with beautiful people around me...

this is some of them...

peace no war...

dark brown 

front view

blue mixed green

i paint my own face for my own wedd...hahahaha

solemnization 

jujumohdjan

the truth is...i dont know what to say

morning readers... friends... families...
i dont know what to write actually, but deeply in my heart and soul, i feel something... unfortunately i have no ideas what a feeling is this... im speechless... it is too complicated... happy, curious, sad, excited, pressure i dont really know what is it... blended... and every second of my life, i am really miss him...even we stay under one roof... i feel like i wanna cry... wish i could... ya ALLAH swt, show me the way... lead me ya allah... i dont understand what will happen to me... or happened to me... i wish if i could talk to someone... who can understand it... i feel sad to see people sad... and i dont know why i felt guilty of something  i didn't do... try to touch something impossible to do so... why...what...how to ease this feeling ya allah... lately, when i look up the sky, i feel like Allah really near to me... is it hidayah from u ya ALLAH??? if yes, alhamdulillah...

and the truth is, i need a vacation...to the place where i can release everything... away from work, away from traffic... a place with no car, just a boat... a place which i could see the real sunset, wrapped by the wind, listen to sound of the waves... i miss that place... a place for us dd...

time pls be nice to me... give me opportunity to get off for a while... but in nearest time... i need to be away from this place... i need to be somewhere which we really belong to... and now, i couldn't think anymore... how to express my self...argggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg...


peace no war????
yes jujumohdjan...