i am so tired...

hurm...i dunno know should i write here or not...im not feeling well with it...but i...i dunno what to say...being honest to others, being nice to people around me...being tolerate...even people dont realize it...im not blame others coz everything good or bad that happened to me before,now and after...it is all because of my goodness and bad thing i did...i never forget that...life tought me to be strong...and this is who i am...hurt other then someday people will hurt u back... nice to others then poeple will treat u nice someday...getting someone in ur life, and remember ull lost them to...no matter what, coz all of us belong to HIM...eventhought im started to feel how enjoy my life...since jan 2011, but still...there is something will bother u sometimes...it just like a test from god...to make u strong, brave and realize the mistake that u did, n learnt how to avoid to do a same mistake again...u'll be strong if u did a mistake then u regret and try to correct ur self...but ull be so damn stupid if u did a mistake, then ull keep on repeating the same mistake...and i dont want to be as stupid as that...my self, my parent, my sibling, my friends, and all people around me will face a same thing in our life...only u, ur self know how to create ur life either make it wonderful, nor make it worse...

again and again, i am who i am...i have no twin who have same habit, interest, style, or anythign exactly like me...coz i am who i am...i never same to someone else as much as that...everything that happened to me and the test that god gave me, differ to other even it is still test from HIM...plus, how i manage to.the past is past, yes, but if u still n keep on going talking about it,and never stop to get involve in it, it is not ur past..it is ur present life...for me my self, i dont know what to do to make other understand me too...i am very simple, so does it to difficutl for poeple to be honest and sincere to me...maybe i did it to toher before and GOD bring somebody to pay me back...alhamdullilah, thank GOD to give me such a beautiful life...

to people out there, either u re my family, my friends, my teachers, my boss, even my enermies, i am sincerely forgive everything that u guys did to me and i am begging u guys to forgive me for every single things, little or big mistake, pls forgive me...i admit for those mistake i did, and im really mean it when i say sorry...

to people who concern about me, im very good, and happy with my life, happy doing all those thing that i dreamed of it since yearsssssssss ago, :)...im not be with anyone, but im be with everyone around me...i love my self, i love my life, i love my soul, i love everything about me...just me...the rest, it is not as deep as i love my self...

peace no war...
back to: juju justagirl...

my dream come true...ohyeah...

wohooo...this is the most thing i love and like...i am finally get my official diving lisence...i always dream of it,but now...it is noy just a dream...its reality...having my first diving's experience was awesome...how to breath,equalize,how to.move ups n downs..owh my god...im speechless...i couldnt describe what i feel actually...it is too good for me...i am happy n so damn happy with it...so just left to plan the location for next dive...hihihi

terengganu's wed vacation...another friend changed their status..

attending my friend's wedding plus vacation...bak kate anas,juju kt dh lame x go for vacation,last time we had was last two years i guess...so,we have it...two purpose for one trip...drive along karak highway to kuala terengganu was awesome...hahaha...sbb gogon tu kental rupe2 nye...jauh gak terengganu...bl da drive sendiri,br tau...b4 this g org drive n nek bus ma...hahaha...we stay at gran continantal,then drove about 28km to husni's house...cantik siti...sepadan sgt...not much to share about his wed coz x dok lame2 kt sne...then after wed,we just drove back to hotel coz each of us need a break...rest due to long journey...target lam pala otak adalah: shopping...silk...yeay i got 3 silk...habis duit borong...mahal tuh...kain paling mahal aku penah bli...tp cun la...we went to masjid kristal...nice...this is the state that hv lots of mosque...cantik sgt...pantai???tahan nafsu je neh nk mandi laut...sabar2,ujung bln neh berendam sepuas ati...( diving lisence course waiting for me)... ngidam laksam aku kt sn...tp sedih,dpt mkn skali jer...n for the first time mkn nasik dagang...yummy...best2 bak kate nad...kopok x pyh ckp la...mcm nk pecah perot...husni bwk g mkn kopok kt tok beng...first tgk kopok versi rebus je...huhuhu...not bad...tp some of us cant accept it...dorg ckp cm x msk...me?sental jer...im a food lover...muahahahaha...last nite we there,dh buntu x tau nk g mn,g funfair...hihihi...no more tourist guide...so guide diri sendiri...few hour b4 back to kl,his mother finally met me...after almost 5 years she wish for that...aunt,get well soon...ill visit terengganu again...so thats all for this time...picy2...upload later...hahaha...

peace no war,juju...

sort of memories...which i sketch it into black and white...

hello my bloggy...hhihihih...dh lame x menulis...quite bz and full of program...hurm having a very tiredness days...and back to work after a week left..all because of responsibility toward everything surrounding... hurm back to the title i wrote there...
"sort of memories...which i sketch it into black and white"

this is one of my hobbies...i have alot, but this kind of hobby require me to get a really good time, and mood to sketch...i love to sketch anything which actually a part of me...a part of juju...the sadness, the useless feeling, the devil junkies in my mind...disappeared when i do this...
ill give some of my artwork to whome that i care and love...even some of them no longer beside me...

"memories"

thing that never could change...we cannot run from our past, because past make what we are today...the past was a memories...a beautiful thing which make man become a dad, women become a mom, boy become a man, and girl become a women...

losing someone, meeting someone, it is all about memories...u meet her yesterday, and its apart of memories when the next day after come to u...u left her today and the days that uve gone through with her is a part of memories...

we have to accept the memories...even its hurt us sometimes, but it give us a food for tought... we will learn to live from our memories...eventhough we never realize it...

chill, peace no war...juju justagirl(common name i used on my artwork)...
wink2...

a piece of beautiful and priceless moment...

have you ever had a moment which for u, it is very important, priceless, and mean alot to u??? i believe that everyone have it...getting a chance to do what we love, visit the place that we never been there, meet people who very nice and friendly, doing some activities which never come across our mind to do it, eat exotic foods, and e.t.c will gave us thousand of experience...good or worse that is how we absorb it...year 2011 gave me lots of priceless memories...he told me to enjoy every moment that we go through...i went to 6 island since jan this year...and it was a wonderful moment...everything that i did related with ocean, waves, beachs will be my priceless moment...i wrote about it last time and im not gonna talk about it again...i just love to share my piccies there...hihihi...

view from little window...mas airlines...

one of the island...

finding me...nemo...

im diving closed to the fish...never did it before...

most i like...credit to james...

man preferred to be...

since about 15 years ago...im facing this kind of problem...man preferred to be my friend...why im not choosing to be friend with a girls???thing like this, i be friend with them,but not as closed as i am with man...my best friends ever...Mbff...yes i do have them...im not being friend with girl, women, ladies as much as im with a man because for me, man are so cool...easy going...and they are not as sensitive as women always be...i do admit that i have the same feeling too...sensitive feeling but im not too weak to be like that...hahahha, i always said to my self and even some of my friend,im a man beb...i love to be friend with them because they can dissolve all the heavy words and joke came out from my unpredictable mouth...huhuhu...my bad...but that what most of my boyfriend preferred as i do too...(boyfriend here means a normal boyfriends...not a special one...ok)...and realize or not, im really enjoyed having a same interest with this community...i am an outspoken person, and only man could accept what words came out fr me...and most of ladies, will not ok with it...i hate girlish women...this is just what i feel, i don't like women out there who always shows to man that women are weak...sorry to say, hell with it...for me i can do what man can do accept the thing that GOD make a limitation of it...u know what i mean...i wish to be like man, easy going...dress up???simple, outgoing, but just nice...as i do...
well, for me man always preferred to b...statement bahaya...hihihih...
peace no war...cau...

water rafting...are awesome....

hello world...hurm,this time i would love to talk about my another fav activity,water rafting...have u ever experienced it??? if not, i think u have to try it...this time, my location was sabah...i did it last few weeks during my vacation there...the person who responsible to guide us was very good in hospitality...he was very friendly, talkative, and he had very much knowledge about sabah... well, on my way to the place name kiulu, he didn't stop telling us about history of sabah...he introduced him self as spiderman...hahahah...he wish to be like superman i think...we arrived kiulu around 10.30 if im not mistaken, and what make me happy and excited was, the river...river mean, water...water mean awesome...i think my decedent might be mermaid or...turtle...hahhaha... there were 3 group who just started their journey at the time we arrived...then spiderman asked us to change the cloth first, then he gave us some training about how to get survive during rafting...what should we do if one of use fall into river...it was so cool...the we started our journey 1 1/2 hours later due to another group are not arrived yet...they came from singapore and 10 of them in a group...compared to us...4 in a group...a statement from that Singaporean group which made us laughed...they dont want to get wet...huh???u go for water rafting and u wont get wet????"water" itself show that what kind of activity is it...
hahhahahah....just after 10-15 min, all of them wet!!!hahahhaha....they seem like very arrogant coz spiderman asked two of them to join us, but the wont...where is ur hospitality guys...advantages for malaysian, we are always friendly and most of us have a very good hospitality...hihihihihi...proud to be malaysian...during our journey to the end point, it was so good and day started raining and it cause the water become a bit aggressive...when we just pass a bit rock'es area, spiderman pull our boat closed to them...he asked us to stand properly in front of him cause he want to snap a picture which 4 of us in it...i know he had something bad plan in his mind and right after all of us changed our sit, he pulled the boat and turn us into river...arghhhhh...he was not satisfied coz we were not fall into river at all...ahhahaha...its good actually when each of us sturggling to get back into boat...and i am very proud to be the first person who succeed to get in...(poyo sekejap)...and few min later, we saw the end point and i dont really like it coz i want it more...but i know when the end comes, it will end no matter what it is...
so what come across my mind is, ill start it soon at different place which more ex-stream than kiulu...padas and sedim will be the next...
guys, here are some pic's that spiderman took for us...
well, i suggest u guys to try it...this is a motivated activity, so try it once then im sure ull like it...

rescue technique...