hello guys...it been a while...im not update my blog... very busy coz i just moved in a new house, staying together with my hubby, loaded with work and had to finish all the classes that i canceled during my wedding time... marking all tests and quizzes for all subjects...and preparing the carry mark sheets and all the exam stuff... owh yes, our housewarming party...unexpected,tq guys for coming... even staying in kl, you guys could manage to be here for us...tqvm... and my students, they helped me lot...helped my hubby bbq'in till late nite...hahhahaha... thanks god i can manage it... ok let talk about what i wrote there...the title for sure...
have you ever heard about people talking about the past??? anything about the past, bad or good, worse or awesome???? frankly say, i think the best thing to do with past it just like this beautiful quote
everyone had their own past... my parents, your parents, my friends, your friends, everyone in the world...so do i... im dare to bet that u couldnt meet anyone out there who has no past moment or time in their life... even a baby still have it... the moment where they live in their mother's "tummy"... even they cant remember it, but still yes... ive met few people who sometime blaming the past they had previously... and to be honest, i am a part of it too...last time... but what i did is, ive learned from it... thank allah swt for giving me a chance to experience this... what i had gone through before make me who i am today... i dont have a good past time before, ive experienced lot of thing which really make me feel like i am a loser...but when the days comes on, and time changing, i took a time to judge what ive did before... does it really good for me to still thinking about it??? or is that too bad to be true for me??? to blaming my self or parent or family or anyone out there??? or even sometimes blaming god for giving that to us??? last few years, i was involving in a very worse situation where i have no intention to stand back fight for my self... im facing a moment when the one u trusted, broke ur heart and make people who closed to u started ignoring u... avoiding u while they dont realize it is really ur fault??? and it make me think twice... and im started blaming my self... and from that moment, im avoiding people even my fam... no eid for me, no ramadhan, no laugh, no more gathering...
yes my heart broke into pieces... a very small pieces which i thought i couldn't glue it back... at age 21, ive to be strong to live without them... and what i got is, now...who am i now... and allah know what right what wrong... he show the truth... he gave me strength to build up my self... give me the opportunity to live again without the past... i make the past as a book for me to learn... to be aware of what will come to u in future... yes, we become who we are nowadays coz our past... but please dont make the past as ur present... ull hurt friends... really... you'll go nowhere if u keep on living in the past... i let my past be my past and really, nothing couldnt change it... dont regret of what u did... if u made a mistake, use ur future to not repeat it again... i always said that if u did a mistake then u should avoiding it for next time...coz if u still repeat a same mistake, u are an idiot... yes idiot... i believed in it... our life a full of learning process... we couldnt avoiding it... so learn from what u had go through... even yesterday or a minute before...
when the day my hubby replaced my father's responsibility towards myself, i remind myself, to live in present... stop talking about the past we had, take the good, forget the bad things... we had a future together to go through, so lets prepared our self for it... not for the past... guys, im just share what ive experienced b4... if u had a bad day yesterday, let start creating a smile on ur face, then believe me, the smile will change u to be a +ve person... last but not least, please, live in present...not in ur past...
peace no war
jujumohdjan
j\peace no w
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